You're Sixteen

You're all ribbons and curls, ooh, what a girl
Eyes that sparkle and shine
You're sixteen, you're beautiful and you're mine
-Ringo Starr

My little peanut is 16 weeks old today. I know this song is meant for a 16 year old, but right now, 16 weeks seems so profound.

Where did the time go?

She got her first tooth in two days ago... Huge shock to me! Scarlett didn't get a tooth until she was 6 months, so 3.5 seemed far too early to even think about it. Somehow, I think this will be true to her form. I have this funny feeling Liv is going to be our child full of surprises. She's so quiet and alert. It sounds kind of funny to make assumptions about who your child will be when they're only 16 weeks, but I swear, thier personalities develop so quickly. I always knew Scarlett would be happy, silly, a big talker and wildy expressive... Olivia is already very different. My little Liv is quieter, speaking up only when she has something big to say, she is curious, but reserved and a wee bit more dependent than her big sister was. All in all, I'd call her a nice balance to Scarlett's outgoing, wild, silly nature.

It's so interesting to think about these things now. In two years, will I still feel this way? Will they be completely different? Or are these glimmers of characteristics a peek into the personalities my girls are going to develop in their adult lives? I could probably go on and on with this, so I'll stop myself here... I do think about it often though.

Livvy rolls over now, too. She's been working at it for a while, but couldn't quite get her tubby little self over. But that is another milestone she checked off this week.

Anyone know where I can get a 'pause', 'slow', and 'rewind' button? I feel like I need those right about now. I feel like each day slips into another too quickly. I don't have enough time to savor each moment, each new milestone before another comes.

For now, it's a happy 16 week birthday to my littlest and my oldest will be 2.5 years next week.

Random Thoughts

These are just random samplings of the workings of my mind lately. Forgive the awful awful titles...nothing seems to capture the poetry good enough, so I gave up trying to name them. Still toying with a Lady Gaga themed poem...should be interesting!

LOVESICK
A stolen kiss
Still somehow yearning for
His lingering embrace
Desperate for the feeling
Emotion
Lulled through her surrendering
It's no secret the girl is lovesick

LAUGHTER
At the edge of laughter
Uninvited
Fresh, simple, serene
So fiercely radiant
The broken thoughts distort
A quiet dreamer

LOST
Uncharted
No hope that this
Broken girl will float
Lost in the unkown
Uncertain of what
Her heart is scraming

GUILTY
Guilt floods into my mind
Crushing me entirely.
Deep into the unkown,
A sudenly empty reality.
Desperation swirls
As I long for
The promise of better days.

COCOON
His seductive whisper
Softly grazes warmth across her neck.
A wordles bond wraps
This sweet young love.
They hesistate,
Slow to kiss.
Cocooned in a perfect moment.

WINTER
Winter's muse,
A cold love,
Quickly spread into
Charming illusions.
Blurred forever though the warmth,
Surrendering to a patient spring.